I believe in myself, my family and my friends...

Do I believe in God?

Today I do, but yesterday I didn't, the day before I didn't either, but last week I did...

I believe that I am an ever changing person, with emotions and thoughts of the moment, and yes, beliefs of the moment as well.

When I was 10, I believe what my parents taught me to believe, when I was 13, I began to deeply questions what they taught me, by the time I was 18, I had decided what they taught me spiritually was right for them, but not for me, and by the time I was 21 with my first born and soon to be pregnant with my second, I didn't know what to believe in!

When I was 30, I figured out that no one has one belief... not really, instead each day is new, and full of experiences, some good, some bad, some we don't even feel as good or bad, and all these experiences does something to us, maybe we aren't aware of it, but... they do change us in a very subtle way, sometimes some things change us dramatically... and so our thoughts, feelings, emotions, and beliefs ever so subtly change as well.

What I believed at 10, is no where near to what I believe now, and I bet you all that is within the universe that by the time I am an old woman, with grandchildren, maybe great grandchildren, my beliefs in Myself, the World and God will be nothing like it is now...

Life has a funny way of changing people, sometimes it happens suddenly, but more often then not, it happens so slowly that you really are not aware of it, until you stop for a while, and think back to yesteryears, and realize... you really have changed...

That I think is the answer to the meaning of life...

Growing, yearning for answers to questions with no answers... searching for them anyway... learning, changing....

How dull life would be if we never questions life, ourselves, or spiritual beliefs.... how dull life would be if we always stayed the same...

So all I can say when I am asked... 'what do you believe in?'

I always believe in myself to some degree... and always in those I love and trust... but spiritually? I do not know....